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Hi all! I've finally made a new website and now it does seems less weird and more like a proper website!
This is one of the busiest (is that even a word ?) day of my life!
Except for studying I'm doing so many things: work, Aikido, horse riding, and so on... and it's maddening. The more I do the more I want to do.
Maybe it's all an excuse for not studying. Let's hope I will find the time once I'm living alone ;P!
Ewan with beard
Gosh, I've always loved any playful sport I ever did (I mean the ones like soccer, volley or even swimming, all except gym), but I never ever waited so impatiently to go doing like this one. I'm a lazy person, the main obstacle was having to leave my hous eto do them.
Now it seems as if I was in love!

I love horse riding!

 

Kira the forth

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Kira seems to be back once again.
Again, I write is just to inform those who don't know already.
I already said everythin I thought in the past and I think any more words on the topic would be too many :D
Bye all!
 


Kira Takenouchi's farewell

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I find myself talking about Kira Takenouchi again.
I feel a bit uneasy about this, because to be sincere, I have left that universe for months by now... I don't feel the attachment to it I felt before anymore and I can't bring myself to go back and enjoy it (and I'm not accusing Kira for this. It's just the way it is).
Therefore, to be here now, in another time of crisis for Kira and her fans, talking about her....I feel like one of those old hags that just bit a tasty bone...something to speak about others....
I'm writing this ONLY to inform those of you that from time to time have been aking me for news about her (because they couldn't afford the membership to her group to be up to date) what it is happening this time.
Today I received a message in which she said her farewell. She said she is leaving her stories and yaoi, for 2 reasons:
1) she has been having problems with people nagging her for one thing or another (don't ask me, I know nothing more about that)
2) She feels her obsession with yaoi is unsavoury for the path she has been called upon by her religious beliefs. She doesn't think yaoi is bad or that sex is bad, but it is bad to be so obsessed by it night and day. She thinks that is not what a good Christian should do.
( 3) She also said something about it not being very profitable lately too. )

I have no idea what she will do with her stories. She's refunding people who already paid pre-orders.

This is all I know.
I don't know if she'll ever be back or not.
My opinion is that this is like a drug or smoke addiction to her. She likes it although she knows it's not good for her.
It won't be simple either way.

This is all I know so far.


UPDATE:
mmmh I think a maniac attack is probabily the best explanation this time too....given some of her reactions.
To know more check out her profile on Facebook (Kira Takenouchi) or her new profile (Lila: http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?v=wall&id=100000850022665).

I don't understand if she gave her works to someone (that's what she said at first) or if she just deleted everything

And all this God here Jesus there...
I'm not a believer anymore, but I have been a strong one. Really. And I have full respect of who believe in God (I wish I did still too)
But even when I believed, when I prayed 30-40 minutes every night before sleep because I felt the need too, even when a promise to God for me was words written in stone, I NEVER felt the need to quote the bible or putting "God" or "Jesus" every ten words in my speeches. I never shamed every one else or felt the need to change my personality.
Everyone live religion as they wish of course, but that doesn't sound healthy in my opinion

And something else is bugging me.
If this is her true identity why does she still use avatars?

I'm not a psycologist, but I feel that she is never at ease with herself. Not when she's Kira Takenouchi nor when she was Kira Morningstar, nor now that she's whatever she called herself. And that's probabily why she also creates these fictional people  from time to time to sustain herself.

I don't know why I cant just let her go though...it's like with an ex. You don't love them anymore but they will always hold some of your thoughts.

New Positive Wave

Abatantuono

I'm not dead...I was just swept off by yet another new obsession: Gay movies.
You may notice there's a new page on that topic too on my website.
I should finish it up today too. And then I swear I'll start updating again the manga and HP fanfic sections too.
It takes so much time though....and I really have to finish translating chapters 4 of Yatteraneze in Italian.

But I feel energized somehow....
I started a French Course, I went to see two of my teachers at the University to discuss the program for their courses and I like them a lot, and my job is going pretty well.
I may even get a scholarship this year....
So, I'm in going through a positive period, not even the 1300 euro I have to spend for my dentist depress me too much...I will pay it in some months...I'm not gonna get down now because of that!

Too good to be true....

Gatti Combattenti
I was floating in la-la-land...but I was brought down again to earth...and to University Fees, Car insurance, University fees! I won't be able to put aside a little money untill December...when I'll spend it all again in the next University rate and presents....
Well, I should just focus on the thought that I'm still in a better place respect last year, I do have more time to study and I do spend lot less...
But  STILL!
Work work work...an my next 4 wages are already spent!
And I started a new diet too.
I have right to feel bitchy!
I have a sugar starved brain to keep up with!

Dare I to believe it?

Ewan in kilt
I have actually some time for myself, and a little money to buy some stupid useful thing too. I'm spending a lot less money being so close to home, and I have half a day free to study or indulge in myself again.
I can't believe it.
Even though I spent much of said time in the last two weeks working at home or...just SLEEPING, I started studying again and I'm tidyng up my PC all my mangas, etc etc.
I know it's lame and stupid, but it feels great!
It's like taking back my life.
Even though it will be hard to keep studying all the same, at least I can really think about it.
Gosh, don't give up everything just because "these are bad times" and shit like that... we'll have enough time for regret later, but now we have to try and do what we planned for our life.
Of course we must keep our feet on the ground. I didn't left my old job until I found a new one. I can't afford to just study, so I work....
But if you don't try you don't do anything.
Gosh this post is so clichè! So "God Bless us All" XD
But I feel like this so keep up with it!
*My Ewan in Kilt to celebrate my good humor (until it will last)...oooh, if I could be a little breeze what I'd do to that Kilt!*

A new beginning ?

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I'm so excited. Next week I'll start my new job.
It's on shifts and it should leave me a whole half day every day of the week free, plus 2 free days per week.
I can really start studying again!
It's close to my home and that means that 8 hours of work will be just 8 hours, instead of the 12 hours away from home I'm doing now. And I like that job more too.
Finally luck turned my way!
I hope that will mean more time for my little website and yaoi interests too.
*happy dancing away*

Kira Takenouchi - the Third :)

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I'm sorry if this title offends anyone, especially Kira, but I found it  fitting to the situation.
I wanted a funny title for a situation that I hope will start and keep going in a more light mood than the last year's.
And let's think of it as a best wish for the future too.

For all Kira fans, Kira is back again.

If you're interested, check her Facebook profile. Just look for "Kira Takenouchi" on Facebook. I'm sure she'll post updated information about her new website or everything else she will do from now on there.

As for how she is, I don't really know. She seems well. She took some months off and I hope they were good for her.
She will obviously still be ill. But... I don't know, I have a better feeling about it than about her second coming back.
As I said some posts ago, I think the best course of action with her will be to just consider that she is ill and can't control her illness totally (even though, let's hope it will not bring her to last years depths) and that she is the author and she has the control. It's good to feel that she's your friend and I'm sure she believes you are one too. But she just can't take criticism in any form: not about her writings nor about her behaviour.
And that she can be bitchy about it too. :)
But this is my burnt feelings speeking and my considerations. You do as you wish.
She was a bloody good author so I'm thrilled to enjoy some new good fiction from her.

Is this my life?

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I really really REALLY need to get my ass up this chair and start making something for my future life again.
I don't want to stay here...I don' t like my job.
I want to finish studying and just leave for whichever country as soon as possible.
Damn money!
I want to be a kept woman...don't mind much about other lovers....anyone interested?

There you go...I started going nut again....

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